I’m not enough for you

“I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact that I’m not enough for you. I knew this was going to happen. So I’m not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. I’m not angry, either. I should be, but I’m not. I just feel pain. A lot of pain. I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt, but I was wrong.”

―Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun

Siapa Aku Bagimu?

Aku ini siapa bagimu?

Hanya satu saja pertanyaan yang kupunya.

Siapa,

aku,

bagimu?

Entah di urutan ke berapa aku ditempatkan.

Entah di tempat seperti apa aku ditempatkan.

Entah bagaimana caramu menempatkan.

Satu hal.

Aku selalu menempatkanmu di urutan pertama,

terbingkai rapi di hatiku,

dengan tulus tanpa pinta.